Choices choices choices...

Choices. Should i do this, or do that? I think i'll go to the pool today instead of doing homework. Maybe i should ask that girl out on date.....or maybe i won't. If you just stop and think, our lives are filled with a lot of choices. I struggle with choices personally, and everyone does, but for me it's usually about whether i should go home or not. I'm not saying i'm one of those kids that disobeys their parents and goes home whenever they feel like it. Exodus 20:12 "Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God is giving you." A good boy, and girl, always listens to their parents :).......anyways, today, i just didn't feel like going to church. I mean, for junior high, since i am a junior high leader over here at our church's youth group. But yeah, i just didn't feel like going, so i didn't. I really don't think that's very good because i havn't gone in two weeks but those times i was busy. Well, right now i'm just tired and a little bit down so yeah. Back to what i was saying, we all make choices everyday, and sometimes we struggle making them. But that's a good thing.

Just think about how many people out their can't make a choice. They're slaves that have no choice and say in anything they do. They just follow orders otherwise they will get killed. So i am thankful for being able to make choices. Better yet, thankful to God that He allows us to choose. I don't know if you know but God gives us freewill. He gives us the chance to make choices, and that is super awesome. This is one of the reasons why i believe there are so many bad things in the world, because He gives us the choice to do good or do bad. He gives us the choice to choose Him as our God, or not. And well, for the people who don't choose Him as their God, their busy having fun in immoralities. Stealing, raping, committing adultery, lying, and all those evil things. You know why God gives you that choice? Because He wants your heart. He can easily cause all of us to turn to Him at this very moment, but He doesn't because He wants us to love Him with our hearts. Not because He forces us to. That's what's so wonderful. He want's us to CHOOSE Him with our HEARTS. And when we do, He will give us so much love that our hearts will not be able to contain it. He will give us joy, happiness, and everything we need, just like a father providing for everything his baby needs.

A long time ago, well not that long, but about 6 months ago, a really good friend of mine invited me to church. She had invited me to church many times before that but i just did not want to go because to me, church was lame, and i didn't really believe in God then too. But one night i decided to go, so i went with a friend of mine, and that night, now one of my super awesome friends was giving a message and it spoke to me. His message was on a verse in Proverbs that i cannot find right now so im just going to leave it at that. Okay, so his message spoke to me and the next week i went, i made the most important choice of my life. I chose God to be my savior, to be my king, to be my heavenly father. I cried that night, wait, bawled is a better word. My eyes were blood shot red, but i will never forget that night. Soon after, God provided for me new friends, and i still hang out with these people to this day, and i love them to death. They all love God, and are super awesome. And i'll tell you, if God had not provided for me these wonderful friends, i would have fallen away because we all need people in our lives to help us move up. To encourage us in the Lord, and well, my parents and my other friends weren't very supportive of the new choice that i had made. My parents are cool now and are going to churh every week. Now, i am so good and happy, and am so loved by my heavenly father.

Just to lay it out, i led a pretty normal life. My parents are divorced, but still are friends. I used to drink alcohol and smoke cigaretts and weed. I wasn't really into cigs really, and stopped after a month i started, and i only tried weed twice, so i wasn't really a bad person, and didnt really drink often, but when i did i would chug drinks down. I also used to swear alot. Every other word was a cuss word, so you can just imagine talking to me. Also, i had a bit of a temper problem, where i would punch things and swear alot and loud. Oh yeah, can't forget i used to get depressed alot. So there you go. I probably wasn't the most likely candidate to become a christian, but look at me now, i am one, and i am proud of it!

So just to end this blog, i would like to note, i hate how the media portrays christians, and alot of things. The media shows christians to be goody two shoes from birth till now and have no idea to have fun. They don't know what it feels like to drink, or do drugs, to not follow the rules, or even to do anything bad in their life. I'll tell you right now, sure there may be some christians like that, but majority of christians don't have the best pasts. They're people i know that have done drugs alot, and have had sex. I know christians that used to steal, were in gangs and were gangbangers, been arrested, caused so much trouble, and have been raped. It's so stupid how the media does that, and alot people believe it. That's why one of the reasons why people don't go to church is because the media shows it to be all goody goody. I'm not saying that that isnt true. We are good, we follow the rules, we love one another, we love God, but the way the media shows it, it's not very appealing. You just have to experience it for yourself, and you'll see how it really is. Also, just to let people know, that when people choose God, He wipes their slates clean. They are given a new life, and their past, their old self, is no longer a part of them. So yeah, just wanted to let people know that.

O God, I thank you so much for allowing us to choose things God, especially to choose you. Lord, I pray that people around the world begin to see how good and beautiful you are and start to make that life changing choice. That choice to make you their heavenly father, and to give their hearts to you. I love you God, we love you, and we can easily say that from our hearts. Please continue to bless us and pour your wonderful grace upon our lives. We pray this in your sons holy name, Amen.